For the past few weeks since the beginning of my chemo and last meeting with my oncologist, I've been on a slight emotional rollercoaster...up...down...up...down....
First, thanks to many of you who have talked to me about 'fighting' cancer ! It has been a great motivator and help for me in that regard; from the people who passed along personal experience of their own cancer fight to those who have explained how they see me fighting cancer; explaining even with the simple act of showing up at church each week I'm fighting. I really needed the extra support ( certainly not that support from my awesome wife was less than I needed, just needed to hear from others as well!). Thanks again for all the positive encouragement, it really did change my outlook & thoughts!
So, emotional rollercoasters...right. So I have been up and down with emotion lately because my Oncologist mentioned that if my CT Scan ( yesterday) does not show significant reduction in the other cancers ( remember, liver 'stuff' was reduced about 10%, but the rest was not growing or shrinking) that we will have some choices to make on what to do next; mostly I believe he will change my Chemo chemical cocktail... That is where I'm concerned and the source of my low points. Right now my side effects are generally mild, with occasional nausea and once in a while a 'bad day', but nothing really bad; I'm worried that the 'new' cocktail will introduce some much worse symptoms and it will knock me down. Maria has been very supportive and tried to keep me thinking only of the positive, but blame my personality...I like to consider all the outcomes ahead of time. I know I'm probably worrying over nothing, and certainly worrying about something out of my hands is a waste of O2... but I am what I am
The real rollercoasters...
Not much to say here except we're off to Carowinds this weekend for our kids to hop on some of the real rollercoasters. It'll be a big challenge for Maria to keep me off of them too; but I know she'll keep me from doing anything stoopid!
We'll probably post the results from Monday's Dr. appt and Chemo um, Monday since we discovered that the infusion room has complimentary wireless internet...how cool is that; sittin getting nuclear goo in my body while checking email and surfin the 'net.
As always thanks for the smiles, hugs, thoughts and prayers!
-Gavin
1 comment:
Gavin,
From the beginning of being brought in, there hasn't been a day that has gone by without me thinking about you and checking the blog for any status. I'm praying for you unceasingly.
Jim
(Elisa Stelwagon's husband)
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